Long Update .... LOL..... :)

Well I had Wanted to keep this updated but I been SO Busy so i am just going to go ahead and try and catch up and start again..... LOL .... Well My birthday was Sunday and I have to say I had a very good birthday I actually really loved it!!! I turnded 23 and I feel liked I aged for 8 yrs in one yr. I have Done so much Growing in my heart or shall I say God has done so much growing in me. ...... I woke up late cause i been sick for like two weeks, now. I had a horrible cough and at night it was worse. I was being stubborn and didnt want to go to the hospital .... or to the doctor .... I kept just wanting to be healed .... But then i was remindede that is why

God created doctors. So all in all I went to the doctor yesterday which was Monday and I have Bronchitis I was swelling under my chest but I have Meds now and Should Be fine soon. I have to say that God has really been giving me alot of peace and calmness even though i been really sick it never felt that bad ...... So anyway back to my Birthday I woke up late, then went to church ... I really enjoyed it!! Then I went to eat at Henrys with just like 6 People .It was interesting ..... After that i went to the Cemetary , When i was younger i used to always want my mom to see me on my birthday. So i decided to go to the cemetary and clean the ground where she is laid at .... The flowers that are laid on the ground where so dead they were the ones from the funeral .... ALot of them did not fit in the trash bag I took .I took a 55 Gallon bag and they all did not fit and even though they were dead the thorns on the roses still pricked my skin hard enough to draw blood....I left one pile of flowers cause they were the only fake ones and had color... There was also alot of those Long candles with Saints on them and Like A statue of a saint ... My mom is buried in the catholic part of the cemetary and her friends had left her candles and some other stuff which they believe will help her get to heaven. It is believed that she dont go to heaven till 3 days after she passes cause that is what Jesus did and the candles are supposed to help her get there faster or easier something like that. I am not to sure I dont know much about all of that ...But anyway the reason I looked into it was cause I threw everything away cause it was so dirty no one has gone out there. It all looked like a pile of trash so i cleaned it so it looks pretty and nice, I ended spending like two hrs out there ... It may sound weird But i like how quite it is out there. I read a story the other night and it pointed out how the cemetary is the only place where you can go and no one has problems.... Well after that we went to see a friend and then went to eat with my friend priscilla and her Husband and their Daughter .We went to Cheddars it was good, then we went to their house and played Catch Phrase It was Fun!! SO any way before that as you all may Know my mom passed Feb 13, She assperated then it turned into a heart attack . During that time Angel went back to live with has mom it was alot for me to deal with so i was just going to send him till after the funeral but it was such a big deal for everyone that I decided it is better if he stays with his mom and she dont feel like it is a option to have him. God gave him to her not me and she is his mother ....So it is just better this way .... So it is weird to not have any kids at my house ..... Lets just say a little more quite and calm and most of all not so much routine .... Well after that like around Feb 27 or something like that I got a car the funny thing is that it is standard 5 speed I could not drive it off the lot because I didnt know how to drive standard .... Well at first I was so nervous it was hard for me so I decided to pray about it for one whole day FOR knowledge and patience and peace. The next day i got in my car and i of course did not know how to drive it but i did it i slowly got the car into each gear and when i stalled i did not freak out i just turned it back on and started again I know God is with me in my car and I love it !!( He is with me everywhere i go) :) So anyway I have been good I feel Like i am going on and on .... LOL .... but i was sitting here thinking about how for as long as I could remember I wanted to be a child I use to want for someone to just scoop me up in there arms and Hug me and hold me and tell me about there life experiences and how they learned from it and to just welcome me. Well most of all i wanted to be a part of a family and someones daughter. I would say ,but now it is all so different for me i know that i am adopted in Christ and I have a family and I am so so so loved. In time if God desires it for me i will have a Godly Husband and a Family But for now I am ok and very loved by people in my Lif e... I just love it !!!